Still the Same
If you know me, waiting when I know someone knows something will drive me batty. So I said “Now, please!”
I did say please.
Her reply was, “I’m sending you guilt free plant money. Go and buy you something you’ve been wanting.”
I knew just the thing!
I have been looking all over Houston for a “Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow” bush. It’s a beautiful plant that has purple flowers that fade to lavender that fades to white. And the smell is heavenly. In truth, I’ve been looking for this plant for about ten years.
Recently, I found out the name of it. Now,every time I say this name, it’s a reminder to me of some important foundational sized beliefs.
A couple of weeks ago I was in the ER for a stomach bug. I was dehydrated and in a lot of pain.
Can you say “Miserable?”
While there, the doctor ordered a CT with contrast of my abdomen. I did warn them ahead of time of what they would be seeing. I’ve had a lot of procedures over the last couple of years and I do know I have some missing parts, some swollen parts, and maybe, but hopefully not, additional parts. Unfortunately, they saw something new.
I have a new lesion on my liver that’s a bit bigger than my last three. It’s 3cm, almost 4cm, and in the midst of scar tissue from previous treatments. After talking with my Transplant Coordinator, the Tumor Board met to look at the new scan. The decision is to wait until June when I already have an MRI scheduled and we will get a better look at it then.
I like this decision. It means I can enjoy the good days I’m in the midst of. Till then...I live life fully and work in my garden and spend time with my husband.
This new finding brought me full circle back to this question...”God, when’s my healing coming? I know you still heal. When’s mine?”
Throughout this illness I have prayed and been prayed for. Sometimes I do ask God why my healing hasn’t come yet. I know it’s all in his timing. But sometimes NOW is what I’m wanting.
And then, with the gift of this bush, I’m reminded that He is still the same. That He is the same yesterday and today and forever. He is the same God who is always good. He has healed in the past. He is healing today. And He will heal tomorrow.
He reminded me of a friend I prayed for...Mr. B. He is Hindu. One day a couple of years ago I saw him limping and dragging his leg behind him because he was in pain. I approached him and asked if I could pray for his leg. His reply, “Why would your God be interested in hearing a prayer about me? I’ve never prayed to him. He doesn’t know me.” I looked at him and smiled and said, “He does know you and loves you very much.” And I prayed.
That afternoon I ran into Mr. B. He was in the parking lot and busting a move. He stopped in front of me and jumped up and down and pointed at his legs. Then he ran up to me and said, “He listened! Your God listened! And He healed me!” And with that, he almost skipped down the parking lot. This very loving grandfather, skipped. He’s still skipping.
God has healed yesterday!
In talking to a friend Tuesday night, we talked about her grand baby who was able to come home from the NICU. He was born with a heart murmur, his kidneys weren’t functioning, and there was fluid swelling on his brain. She laid hands on him and prayed for him. God listened. This baby boy got to go home because everything in his body was normal.
God heals today!
And because of these stories, and so many more, I am reminded.
God will heal tomorrow!
As I gaze at the beauty of this plant and enjoy it’s fragrance, I’m reminded...
My healing is coming. He has heard the request of my heart and those of friends and family around me.
Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow...
He’s still the same.
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